Saturday, October 18, 2008

Nerves

The day is quickly approaching and i'm getting so so so nervous. More nervous than starting college, more nervous than getting married. I mean...those things were cake compared to 26.2 miles!

What if I don't finish? What if I don't make the 20 mile cut-off in time? What if my knee starts hurting? What if I need to use the bathroom? What if I oversleep? What if I forget to pack running shoes? What if I don't eat a good breakfast? What if all the marines start booing me? What if I get a side stitch? What if my legs start cramping up? What if there are too many hills? What if Schmuffin isn't there waiting for me at the finish line?!?!?!? What if? What if? What if?

It's still a week away and already I'm having trouble sleeping. These are the type of things that plague me with worry late at night. Is this normal? Does this happen to anyone else? Maybe I shouldn't have picked such a crowded marathon to run. I've been training for 5 months!! I HAVE to do this thing to make it all worth it. Ya know how they say runners hit a wall when they run marathons? I think i've hit a mental wall. I've been freaking out the past week. My nerves are getting to me. 7 more days and it will all be over. 7 more days and I can sleep in late again. 7 more days and i will never look at an ice pack again. 7 more days and it will all be worth it!

-Jilly

2 comments:

Lucy said...

This is your mother telling you to stop worrying. No matter what happens WE know that you will do your best. We are so proud of your determination to do this. The training alone was quite an accomplishment.

So go out there and show those Marines!

Unknown said...

Make sure to take large amounts of laxatives the night before. Oh, and wear shorts; or leave the shorts at the house. Trust me, after the cramping has subsided, everyone will get out of your way.

Actually, I worked with Lucy until recently, and she gave me a link to your blog. I told her I was going to write something foul...Best wishes, and ignore the first paragraph; I have no idea what I'm talking about....